And why shouldn't that be good enough?

The longer I live...

The more TV commercials I watch...

The more magazine headlines I read...

The more I realize that I don't know what it truly means to have self confidence.

Because if I say that I'm OVERWEIGHT and that I need to EXERCISE, the self confident woman tells me that my body is lovely and that I shouldn't obsess over being skinny or muscular.

Because if I decide that my body is beautiful exactly the way it is and there is nothing wrong with it, the health and exercise-conscious woman tells me to exercise self control and get my dumpy ass off the couch.

How do I find the balance of having positive body image while trying to lose weight? Is such a thing possible?

The truth is, I really don't know. I believe self confidence and true body love looks completely different for every single woman. Personally, I'm still figuring out what it looks like for me, but here are a few things that I do know.

#1 I am a size 12 and that is perfectly okay with me.

#2 There are parts of me that jiggle when I walk. This is also okay.

#3 Coming from family with the genetic tendency to be overweight, I know I'm going to have to fight a weight problem my whole life. It will be hard, but I'm up for the challenge. 

#4 Rome wasn't built in a day. Goals will not be met with a quick fix and a half-assed effort. I'm trying to learn this and be okay with it. 

#5 Success in this department does NOT equal a particular size or a particular body type. 

# 6 Success in this department means never giving up on my goals and always striving to love the reflection in the mirror. Because if I don't love my body now, I never will and there won't be a victory that is good enough for me. 

So self-acceptance AND self-love come FIRST.

And why shouldn't that be good enough? 

And I guess it's just as well, but I miss your face like hell.

Painfully beautiful and personally touching. 

OH HAI.

It has been quite a while since I've posted anything.

OH HAI THERE.

I've been a very busy bee. A lot has happened. It's the week before finals, so I haven't much time but I want to just do a leetle update. So here we goes. 

#1. I'm roughly three (3!!) semesters away from graduating.

#2. I submitted a short story to a university writing contest and it won third place!

#3. I have a new job.

#4. My seester came to see me!

Aren't we cute?

#5. This happened.

#6. Also this. 

#7. I'm going to see Mumford and Sons with the lovely man in the picture above (To protect his identity, I'll refer to him by his nickname, Beanz [bet you'll NEVER guess his real name]), and several other dear, dear people.

#8. Aforementioned (I love that word) music event with Beanz will be in Austin, TX which means we'll be DENTON-ing as well!

Update (almost) over. School's almost out and when it is, I'll have much more time to sit on my fanny watching unhealthy amounts of Netflix blog and write and do many happy summer things. As of right now, I must away to write a ten page research paper and study for my final exam in Deutsch. 

Ich bin in Schwierigkeiten! (No yes I didn't did use Google Translate)

Tschüss!

love,

jolly molly